I wish I had a wonderful and sweet birthday letter to write you, but honestly I have no idea what to say. It’s your second birthday since you passed but it still feels so recent. It seems like just yesterday was my graduation and we had everyone together. I am so truly blessed to have gotten that time with you, I didn’t know how much I would need to hold onto that visit until long after it was over.
The initial shock of losing you left me so lost, but as time has passed I’ve learned so much from this experience. You taught me some amazing things while you were alive, you always gave me confidence, you told me I could be anything I wanted, and you showed me the best examples of loving people unconditionally, but I think some of your greatest lessons to me happened in your passing.
Since you’ve been gone I have learned to just chill for a minute and let life happen, and then figure out where to go from there. I gained the courage to move 3,000 miles away from home, simply because opportunity knocked, and someone needed my help. I gave up being angry at people that hurt me, and in releasing them I could release myself. I learned how it felt to deal with anxiety and stress, which made me a more understanding person to people that have to deal with those constantly. I learned that you can’t heal people, you can only love them while they learn to heal themselves. And the obvious one, I learned that everything can change in the blink of an eye, which has made me appreciate each day I get to spend with those I love.
So happy birthday mom, you were a beautiful creation and I am honored to have gotten to spend time with you through my life. All my love, your daughter.
Just a simple poem I wrote for you.
“Some days, all I wish for is to hear your voice.
Some days, I just want your hug to drown out the noise.
Some days, I need one of your funny stories to laugh away the ache.
But other days…
I get so caught up in life I don’t even think about you,
I get busy and I don’t stop to remember everything you were,
I get distracted and I don’t think about all you did for me.
The some days I hate because they remind me you are gone,
The other days I hate because I forget you are.
It never gets easier missing you, I’m just learning to live with a piece of my heart missing.”